Actually living

21 January 2018 
& 21 May 2018

Music
I put my life on hold for so long
Because of you

Constantly running away and chasing the next thing
Not wanting to settle in the reality that I was in
But to create a new one

The one in my dreams and fantasies 
But this is my life, the life I’ve created.

From working hard and smart

And it is a good life 

And so I choose I relish

I choose to indulge
I choose to enjoy 

This life
My life

And not let the the dream get in the way of actually living. 

Ella Fence

Balance

19 November 2017, 8:42pm

I'm trying to spend more time alone
Let things happen naturally it's
Funny how we go extreme on both ends
And then end up right back in the middle 

Ella Fence

Stupid shit

17 December 2017, 5:22pm

"Sometimes I drink too much so I have an excuse to do stupid shit"

Ella Fence

The lunatic

"The lunatic, the lover, and the poet are of imagination all compact"

William Shakespeare

Unseen?

6 November 2017, 12:47pm

I said some thing I didn't mean
Did things I wish could be unseen 
Told some lies to dry your eyes 


21 May 2018, 8:26pm

Hoping you don’t realise 


Ella Fence

the artist (demo)

this demo/ random musical exploration will be up on my SoundCloud for 24 hours, enjoy x

https://soundcloud.com/ellafencemusic/the-artist-demo

It almost is, but just not quite

And slowly but surely I began to become less interesting to you

You’re less interested in me

I’m less interested in you

I want a life of endless possibility

Of adventure and freedom

But I can give this to myself already

I don’t need this from another 

I want to share that with another 

How many people in this life were interested and didn’t speak up

How many people lied about how they were really feeling

To themselves

To each other 

What if you enter into something for different reasons than the other

One too scared to leave

One too scared to stay

One person more pushy

One person says okay

Do you pretend? Let it go on anyway?

When you know it isn’t right

It almost is, but just not quite

What is your next move?